Wednesday, February 6, 2013

A Whole New World

My last post was when Christopher and I just found out we were pregnant.... Since then we have moved home from California.... we have taken in Christophers younger brother and his dog... and we had our sweet little baby..... I must say Ive learned alot.....




.... Having a child is a blessing from God... One of his greatest gifts.... I must say personally I was not a touchy feely lovey dovey person in general.... I prefered a hand shake to a hug.... But this little Blessing has changed my whole outlook.... I almost feel like I now have a new body part haha like another arm or something and it hurts me for her to be away from me even in the other room for that long.... She is a part of me... She the other half of my heart..... I think having her has changed my whole families dynamic.... Believe me your relationship with your parents will completly change when you have a child and you know that they loved and love you as much as you love your new child which is not comprehendable beforehand.....


Giving that fact being a Mommy or a parent is HARD! .... You now have this precious little life that relies on you for everything... Sometimes I complain because my life revolves around pumping, feeding, changing diapers, folding miniture clothes, then repeat the process but then I think about all of the smiles and the cuddle time while shes breastfeeding and it breaks my heart to think shes going to grow up on me.... No I dont go out partying and drinking for the simple fact that it hurts me to be away for our little angel for that amount of time and well thats not the example that should be set for her plus what if I missed something!? :/.... But thats fine with me completely I would gladly trade in doing those things for the many new adventures that lie in our path....

The stress in our life hasnt changed much.... we have 3 extra mouths to feed (Noel, Jacob, and Shelbys), that being said a baby isnt cheap but a teenage boy isnt either.... especially on only Christophers salery, I havent found a job yet because all that I have found is part time positions and whats the point of having a part time position when all that money will be going to just paying for a daycare for Noel because there is nobody we trust that will watch her for decent money ugh.... :/ plus I dont really want anyone raising my child but me.... but bills need to be paid ...and I hate the thought of Christopher breaking his back and me not helping (even though my job as mommy is harder;) )... We will see what comes of that... but hey we will figure it out the Lord has a plan for us....

As far as yucky people in our life.... Ive learned to just keep my thoughts in my head about what big idiots they are and escort my child in the opposite direction much like myself.... :)

Anywho time to feed the little one and get dinner ready for tonight! <3

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